Heartaches

On Friday Max came home sad from school. He has really done well so far this year and has been enjoying school for the most part. His favorite activity is Fun Friday, which is free time in the classroom. The class can play on the computer, write on the chalk board, play at the teacher's desk... I was happy to hear about Fun Friday because Max has test anxiety and always hates going to school on Friday's because of his spelling test. Well, Friday he came home and told me that he had to put his head down for the whole 45 minutes of Fun Friday. I tried to understand why he didn't get to participate and from what he believes is he didn't do well on his Science worksheet. I find it very hard to believe knowing that the reward is based on behavior, but the more questions I asked like do you think maybe it was because you weren't listening... just made him more upset. I will be writing a note to the teacher to understand why he wasn't able to participate, but I still don't feel that any 8 year old should have to leave their head down for 45 minutes. I know it's important to have incentives, but maybe it should be sitting quietly at their desk and doing worksheets or something. Just thinking of him with his head down for 45 minutes made my heartache. Not a big deal, but I still felt my heartache for Hanna yesterday. There is a girl from soccer that Hanna has met and has really enjoyed. Hanna feels they're friends and she wants me to play them on the field together and wants her to come play over... Well on Saturday this girl started to pass out Birthday invitations. There was only the 3 girls there so far so she passed one out to the other girl and Hanna said, "What's that?" You could tell what it was so I said, "Do you have one for everyone?" And she said, "No just for..." which was about 3 or 4 girls from soccer (that she has known for sometime). I told her if she doesn't have one for everyone on the team she can't pass them out at soccer. Inside my heart ached for Hanna, but I know these type of things are going to happen to my children throughout their life (which I hate to think about) and so I don't want them to dwell on it and feel sad and down about these type of situations, so I made it appear as no big deal hoping that it won't be for Hanna. Which, it might not be a big deal to her (I'm hoping) because she hasn't brought it up since, so it's probably just me. These two situations made me realize the next steps of motherhood and the heartaches to come. (I don't want to even think about further down the road of more serious ones).

Boy Scout

Max became a Boy Scout back in May, but most of the summer was off besides Day Camp. He was excited to receive his first awards last week. He received his Bobcat Badge, his fishing, BBshooting, swimming, and archery belt loops. I love that he enjoys scouts and I hope this sticks with him for a while! I am the Webelo leader and won't have Max in my class for 2 more years, maybe by then I'll have things down. Keep up the good work Max!

10 Years

Today is our 10 year Anniversary! I am surprised to say that even after 10 years I love Danny more than I did on our wedding day. Just to note, I loved him a ton that day!

16 Weeks

I am 16 weeks pregnant today with baby Clark. I see the Dr. in two weeks to find out how the subcronic hematoma is doing. I have been feeling just fine.

Here is my new hair cut! I cut my hair 8 years ago while pregnant with Max and I said I will never cut my hair pregnant again. I guess we should never say never. Danny was actually the one that was pressuring me to do it. I still am trying to learn how to do it as cute as my hair dresser who is also my friend, Mariane.

First Day of School 2011

Max is in the Third grade this year and Hanna is starting First. We are at a new school and the kids take the bus. Hope they have a fantastic year!

Max trying not to smile!

Hope their friendship will always be stong.

Lining up.

Walking home from the school bus stop.

Cookies and milk after school.

First day of Pre-K for Van and Preschool for Daisy and Walt.
I am so lucky to be their teacher!

Zip Line

Max is our little scouter. He loves camping, archery, BB guns, knives and is latest addiction,zip lines! A few weeks back Max and Hanna "built" a zip line! I was pretty impressed how hard they worked on this (especially in the NV heat). Sadly they weren't really able to use it and they had to clean it up the next day because Preschool was starting that week, but what great imaginations they had that day! Of course after building this zip line they really were on a zip line kick and wanted us to really build one, which is not in our current plans even though it would be so much fun!
Pretending to use their new zip line. They even have medal shower hooks.


You can't see the yarn, but it goes from inside Max's room (it was tied to his top bunk) and to the top of the tree, they did it all by themselves!

The Big Talk

We had the "Big Talk" with Max before starting Third grade. We used this wonderful book by Linda and Richard Eyre...

Which says EIGHT years old is the time. Get the book! We also used the picture book that they recommend which is cartoonish, but Danny felt it would be easier to just go through the picture book, but we did not read the picture book it's a little too much info. sometimes. We sat across from a small table and Danny paraphrased, while we ate take out. When Danny first pulled out the book Max covered his eyes and was like oh no and giggling. This made me get the giggles and Danny was giving me the look to behave! At the end of the talk Max only had questions about divorce and Danny said to Max, "If your mom were to die then most likely I would get married again and then it would be alright to have sex with my wife." (Of course we talked about waiting to have sex with the person you love and after marriage). Max was worried that Danny would now have new children and what would happen to him? Danny said, "Max you will always be my son and I love you so much, I would even run through a burning building to save you." Max said, "I'm not going to cry, I'm not going to cry." It went really well, Max felt our love for him and understood the message. I was very grateful for the Eyre's book!

It's a BOY!

We are having a baby boy! We plan on naming him Clark Milton. I found out so early (I 'm only 14 weeks), because they were doing an ultrasound to check on my cyst.


I found out the cyst was not actually the concern it is the Subchorionic Hematoma I have. It appears it has grown some, since my last appointment. From what I've read there is a 1-3% chance of miscarriage because of it. That is very low, but after reading comments I got nervous. Girls lost babies because of it up to 20 weeks. I believe mine is small, but the doctor has already asked me to start taking it easy. Taking it easy is almost impossible between running/teaching preschool, coaching soccer twice a week, scouts (I'm a Webelos leader) and taking care of 5 children. It actually overwhelms me to think about "taking it easy". The risk of the hematoma are miscarriage and placenta eruption. Praying that all will be alright.